I owe you an apology
I am the one that put everyone else before you
I am the one that hated you the most
See, I looked at how others treated you
Felt that you must have done something to deserve it
See I’m the one that got so caught up in pleasing that man
I forgot about you
When I got all caught up in everything the children needed
Allowing that man to hurt you when he busted your lip
Blacking your eye
No, it wasn’t your fault he did
But what did I do to protect you
I apologize to you because
I didn’t feel you were worthy of protecting
See everyone always talked about
How ugly and dumb you where
Even he said you deserved it
I didn’t think you where worthy to be pampered
Or catered to as a Queen should be
I didn’t even think you where a princess much less a Queen
And see self
I even allowed the wrong men to come into your life
Those men that just wanted to take from you
Steal in every way possible till they could suck you dry
Of your energy, your spirit, you love of life
You ideas, your dreams
Your very soul/spirit if possible
Even when the right man came along
I did everything I could to
Sabotage it
Then
Every time you got up brushed yourself off
Started back on your way
Climbing back up that mountain
I allowed it self
I apologize to you self
For every emotional, mental, physical and spiritual scar
I allowed
All I can do self is know
God had a greater plan
And even though those things happened
You are one awesome woman
I just apologize for my part
Self

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